Small Story

A boy with a burning passion once wanted to be a doctor.
But when he dove deeper he saw the deaths he would have to face everyday...
He then wanted to be a policeman
But same as before he found a contradicting side, he would have to be able to kill...
The boy then wanted to be a pilot
But once again stopped. (He was scared of heights)
Finally he stopped to ponder and looked into the deep night sky
What was he thinking
What was his ideal future

What did he long for?